Wait wait. Nothing like that. He's not here, and he's not a threat.
It's about me.
[ He sighs, shaking his head. ]
It's been brought to my attention that I nearly killed you and I didn't ever even say I'm sorry. I didn't thank you for saving us, and for not abandoning us after what I did to you.
I've treated you like Bruce always treated me, and I resent him for it. I can't imagine how it is you don't feel the same.
It's true. They'd all kind of moved on immediately from what happened. Gar had been upset with Dick for months, and they'd never really talked about it. Then it had gotten overtaken by all the other issues that came out after, everything about Jericho and what happened in the past.
He sighs. ]
I did. For a while, I was angry with you.
But I'm not now. We're a team, we're a family. I don't want anything to break that. It's okay, Dick. I promise.
[ Gar takes that in. He does not remember talking to Barry, and he can't imagine why he would've said anything about that. Something must have been going on for it to even come up. He makes a face, though. It wasn't something he had ever brought up to Dick or the others. It shouldn't have been something that he brought up to anyone else, without talking to them.
He looks away, closing his eyes. ]
I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that, but I'm sorry. I'm not holding a grudge anymore, I promise.
We're okay. But...thanks. For saying that. I'm glad I'm on your team.
[It shouldn't mean that much to him, but it does. That Gar trusts him, even though he's seen some of the worst that Dick is capable of.
He wonders if Gar had known Jericho personally if it would have changed things. They were close to the same age. Would he still see Dick the same if he had known him?
But that's a guilt that Dick bears, not one that Gar will ever hold against him. ]
I'm glad you do. I'm working on making sure that doesn't change.
[ And that he deserves it. He's really faced a lot since he's been there, and had to think about what he was doing to others. ]
I want us to be able to talk about things if they do go sideways, okay? I want you to feel you can come to me. We're a team and I don't want to lose that.
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It's about me.
[ He sighs, shaking his head. ]
It's been brought to my attention that I nearly killed you and I didn't ever even say I'm sorry. I didn't thank you for saving us, and for not abandoning us after what I did to you.
I've treated you like Bruce always treated me, and I resent him for it. I can't imagine how it is you don't feel the same.
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It's true. They'd all kind of moved on immediately from what happened. Gar had been upset with Dick for months, and they'd never really talked about it. Then it had gotten overtaken by all the other issues that came out after, everything about Jericho and what happened in the past.
He sighs. ]
I did. For a while, I was angry with you.
But I'm not now. We're a team, we're a family. I don't want anything to break that. It's okay, Dick. I promise.
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Trust me. I'm not proud of myself.
[ Not that he ever has been but its something he's worked hard to hide for a long time. From everyone, not that he's good at it. ]
We are a team, and that's why you deserve to be told how good a job you've done. That I'm proud of you.
And I'm lucky to have you on my team.
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[ Gar takes that in. He does not remember talking to Barry, and he can't imagine why he would've said anything about that. Something must have been going on for it to even come up. He makes a face, though. It wasn't something he had ever brought up to Dick or the others. It shouldn't have been something that he brought up to anyone else, without talking to them.
He looks away, closing his eyes. ]
I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that, but I'm sorry. I'm not holding a grudge anymore, I promise.
We're okay. But...thanks. For saying that. I'm glad I'm on your team.
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[ It's not easy for him, not sure how to say this or what ways he's meant to say to make things right, but he knows he wants to. ]
I'm glad you don't. I just... I'm trying to do better about things with my team, Gar. I don't want to push things until you do resent me.
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It must've been the same day he died, it's the only thing that makes sense. His memories before that are in tact.
He frowns, watching Dick. ]
That's....I mean, yeah, I know that. Things have been a lot different since those first few months. Things are different now.
I trust you.
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He wonders if Gar had known Jericho personally if it would have changed things. They were close to the same age. Would he still see Dick the same if he had known him?
But that's a guilt that Dick bears, not one that Gar will ever hold against him. ]
I'm glad you do. I'm working on making sure that doesn't change.
[ And that he deserves it. He's really faced a lot since he's been there, and had to think about what he was doing to others. ]
I want us to be able to talk about things if they do go sideways, okay? I want you to feel you can come to me. We're a team and I don't want to lose that.